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Older Now

by Eric Radoux

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Older Now 04:07
If I had a fingernail left I would bite down hard To taste the dirt that never leaves From my computer keys I've never lost an arm or leg I have enough to eat But every morning brings an ache I wake without relief A phantom limb I've never known It's the fear beneath my feet That melts the ice away I fold my undershirts well I make a perfect crease But I still haven't buttoned down The reasons I stay clean I turn the TV on Watch someone else's news I live inside a made-up world No one scratching for the truth I only fight the falling leaves And the boredom in my brain That makes the devil sing You'll find me Waiting on Sunday afternoon Gun in hand To shoot the moon Every moment wasted Vacant in my history Is written off As one more life that I've lost To something made of more than me As if I were made of anything That won't rot
When the notes are gone In a heart of song Is it wrong to go away If it means you find your way? Golden years ago Folding out from home Faint memories are a fine bed For sleep Under leaves and ground Where the seeds make sound Quiet lives grow in the soil Humble hands that till and toil When the leaves come down With the darkness 'round And the songs go silent Don't worry for me


The first shuddering chill
of bone ache and disconnect.
Eyes fade and miss the mark.
I strain and see myself
greyed, grizzled — growing
beautiful like dying leaves.


released October 8, 2013

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songs and design by Eric Radoux except

recording of cicadas courtesy of sanus_excipio

recording of clock courtesy of felix.blume

recording of wind courtesy of Glaneur de sons

Thanks to all who believe in art and humanity.




Eric Radoux Nashville, Tennessee

Multi-instrumentalist, composer, and producer inspired by the patient, pulsing energies of the surrounding world.

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