Do I Refuse

by Eric Radoux

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released December 24, 2011

all music and design by Eric Radoux except:

recorded by Colin Shay and Hank Powell
mixed and mastered in both stereo and 5.1 surround by Colin Shay
drums, percussion, and inspiration by Cameron Davis
bass by Colin Shay
clap choir by Eric Radoux, Cameron Davis, Hank Powell, Suli Stuelpnagel, and Will Dewees

art: "The Winter Knows What I Refuse to Show" by Drew Etienne, 2008




Eric Radoux Los Angeles, California

Multi-instrumentalist, composer, and producer inspired by the patient, pulsing energies of the surrounding world.

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Track Name: Addiction
Well before the day begins
I sneak a taste
A ripple on the tongue
I'm in love with you tonight
I've always sold that line with others
A quick one
Then long gone

My body riding on a wave
It washes me away

Three hours before the sun comes up
With whiskey breath and empty cup
A new thirst sends you crashing
Through the door
I fall down on my knees and wait
To take everything I can take
And hours later
I've gone too far again
I've lost a friend

My body riding on a wave
It washes me away

You're giving me signs
And I don't know why
Seven days inside a lie
Ripped apart and open wide
Let the love escape and die
Track Name: Unleashed
I've been following the war
I'm the heartbeat you hear beneath the floor
You can tell us not to sting
But you can't hide from our hive mentality
When you force us from the square
The invasion sends our message everywhere
I'm no doctor, but I read the news
Time is running out for you

Now we've taken to the streets
Your brutality will never make us leave
Pepper in the eye turns the world blind to your side
See if you can save yourself from us
Idiot, you don't know you're dying
Idiot, you don't know you're dying
So tell me what's wrong
Tell me what's wrong
Don't tell me you don't know

Idiot, you don't know you're dying
Idiot, you don't know you're gone
Track Name: Take
I'm alone again on a Friday night
And I wonder how you've been
So I call you close to a thousand times
But I never let it ring
I just want you to know
I'm still alive

Every day is a reminder
Of a love we had before
Scars on mangled fingertips
From when you slammed them in the door
I just want you to know
I'm still alive

Phone calls
And pouring rain
A scratched voice
That screams my name
A siren rings out
From the fire engine you called
A slow flame burning
And I am falling

Spread your legs and hold your ground
I'll escape and never return
You kiss my soul once more
And I'll reach down and take control

Alone again on a Friday night
Wearing all my finest clothes
And a woman glances up at me
I'll be sure to take her home
I just want you to know
I'm still alive
Track Name: Jennifer
Jennifer leaves my house on Saturday
She gives me a kiss and tells me to wait for her
Seventeen days away
She's fading

Jennifer loves to call me late at night
Visine dreams
My eyes are burning bright
Every day longer than the last

But I don't mind the wait
'Cause she's an angel
And Heaven sent her
I'm falling for her

Jennifer's hair flows like the willow's leaves
Catching the drift of any passing breeze
I'd be surprised if she ever wept for me

But I don't mind the pain
She's an angel
And Heaven sent her
I'm falling for her

I cannot catch sight of her
That tornado unstoppable
So much power inside a girl
And no one is as beautiful to me
I join the line that follows her
Swept up with the multitudes
So similar in our solitude
Waiting for her
Who will never choose our name

We don't mind the wait
'Cause she's an angel
Heaven sent her
We've all fallen for her
Track Name: Downstairs
You took me away
And I found out
I had nothing to say
A silent hour
On some living room floor
In an old apartment
We'd never been before
But neither had we met before
So it wasn't the most unusual thing

You can help me tear my life apart
Disintegration is my art
Whiskey don't help my looks
But it helps me to keep my books
'Cause I know where my money goes
Alcohol, hair gel, and Macy's clothes

I'd do it all again
'Cause I met you last Saturday
And I really need a friend

So I buckle my boots
And take the stairs down
To the Root Cellar
Where the whiskey flows
And the DJ resides
Playing old Smiths 45s
And I know that it's over now
'Cause I still sleep alone at night

I'd do it all again
'Cause I met you in spite of me
And I really need a friend